What's the defination of "friends"? Trust, care, and love? I've been feeling so suffocated in school recently. I felt as though those people that i called good friends are suspicious of me betraying them. Seriously, i dare swear that i have never done any thing. Or is it me that is too sensitive? But sometimes, the things they said seem to be sort of "testing" me and trying to see how i react to certain stuff. I felt so much tension..I hate it. But i'm helpless. I've done whatever i could to prevent them from suspecting me but it's still useless.  :cry:

I really miss the days in my secondary school. No guessing and no mind game. It's getting to be such a chore to go to school everyday even though on the surface, they are still nice and friendly to me. I feel like telling them if they don't trust me at all, please stop telling me any secrets or whatever things. The more i know, the more trouble i get into. This is hell~

I just hope that time will reveal everything..and i hope that day won't be too far away..Cos i'm getting crazy with this kind of life.

hey ya.. it's sunday again and the weekend is just passing soOo fast! Alright, i went out with my friends yesterday and boy, was it entertaining! haha~

This gal friend of mine brought along this guy friend(who apparently is still wooing her even though she rejected him). And seriously, he turns ALL of us off!  :lol:

I don't know if it's true, but he said he did his 2.4km run in 6mins! what the hell! I've never ever seen anyone who run that fast. And he said he once split the squash ball into 3 pieces. Is this some kind of king of fighter show or wat? I think he can enter the guinness world book of record..haha. Oh yeah, whatever thing we talk about, he will have something to say. From mahjong to cars to NS to ghost, he will say something that is amazing (i think he is just bluffing) and quite out of this world?!Man, he sure kept all of us enetertained all night!

 :o Harlow! Such a lazy feeling even though it's a saturday afternoon~ I'm going out later with my friends but so felt so drained out after coming back from school just now.

Nothing much has happened these few days. My hair has grown so thick that i just feel like snipping them off. I known i shouldn't complain for having thick hair, but it's horrible when you are living in such a hot climate! And my boyfriend wouldn't let me cut it off, cos he has this male chavinist thingy inside him. Gals should have long hair, fair skin(which i don't!), slim(hardly make that grade), petite(definately not me), gentle(alright), big eyes(alright, i've that) blah blah.. So the only thing that makes me more feminine to him is my hair and my eyes. It's just this thing that male are born with that makes them feel more attracted to ladies with long hair eh? 

:P enough of the unexplainable thing. I hope i can do some shopping later and get a bag or some tees. And yeah, gals love shopping. That's strange too!

Hey! Oki, so Avirl's "my happy ending" has been around for quite some time but i still sing along with it every now and then. Still like this song.Here's my favourite verse:

" it's nice to know that you were there
thanks for acting like you care
and making me feel like i was the only one
it's nice to know we had it all
thanks for watching as i fall
and letting me know we were done"

It's so sad when it comes to a point when the man who loves you the most, the one who is always there for you just stand aside and doesn't care about you anymore. It's a clear but heart breaking ending. I hope i'll never have to go through that. I rather have a sudden break up than to go through this torturing process. Ever played with tarots card before? I did and once i was thinking of how this guy and i will ever get together. The final card eventually says i should just give up cos it will never bear any fruits. I wonder if this thing really works cos eventually, i did not end up with him. I'm pretty much into astrology, numerology etc. Interesting stuff. Darn curious about my future!

My day was pretty alright, got back my result and i'm satisfied. Better than what i've expected but could have done better. I've added a new poll into my blog, and i will try to change a new question weekly.

hi again! i'm suffering from monday blues and i'm sure many of you are too! Thanks for sleeper's comments but i've got one clarification. I've nothing against guys who are shorter than me. Just my mentality that i prefer my boyfriend to be taller yeah? :roll: And yes, i am missing out on a lot of good guys just because i prefer taller guys as my boyfriends. Sense of security i guess.

Waiting for dinner time now, but i'm already so hungry. Gonna put on weight at this rate. I've nothing much to say now, except that i've tons of work to finish within these few weeks. Argh!

Yawn~~ today is such a lazy day for me. Been doing nothing the whole day except stoning and playing with my phone. haha

Oh yeah, it's very weird that those guys i met on the street are talking about a gal's waist size instead of boobs. I guess those guys think waist size is more important than boobs size? In singapore, gals are usually quite petite and i look like a giant when i'm standing beside them! haha..oki, maybe i exaggerated a bit too much. But let me tell ya, i can be equal in height as many guys in my school. Some are even shorter than me! pathetic..

i've fallen in love with "My Place" by Nelly ft. Jaheim. Dilemma was a pretty good song too, and i must hear it everyday last time. I saw the mtv and it's pretty cool too. A tough looking nelly getting all lovey dovey.   :lol:

Have you ever wonder how it will be like to have a guy writing and singing a song for ya? I'm imagining it now.. Guess i will melt! And definately touched. But it will be so darn cool! It will be pretty similar to a fairy tale? oki, forget it. That thing will never happen!

harlow bloggie! It's pretty late now but i'm still chatting on msn. hee~ gonna stay up late now that my exam is over. Went out with my family today and i bought a new phone! yippee..that is my birthday gift. So you bet i'm in a very good mood now  :lol:

I was waiting as a traffic junction today when i overhead 2 guys' conversation. Standing nearby me was a slim, nice back view gal. So these 2 guys started noticing her, saying she's cute. And the funny thing is how they were guessing her waist size. One said 24, the other said 26. Are guys that silly? or maybe i don't understand them yet. Is that guy's talk?

And guys usually say "eek" & shivers whenever they see a gay walking by. That's weird. I mean, nobody can choose their own sexual preferences. It's an inborn thing. I think people view the homosexuality as "abnormal" because they are the minority. Imagine yourself on an island full of gays and lesbians, they will probably think you are a freak for liking the opposite gender! So, there's nth wrong with their sexual preferences. Nobody is able to define what is normal, abnormal, right or wrong. It's all set by the human mind. Change your mind set and you will benefit!

:x Feel so pissed off with my boyfriend now. But i know it's my fault. I'm one of those person who suddenly burst into anger for no reason. Guess you could call me unreasonable. Or is it because of PMS? i've no idea. This day really sucks. I had a headache for an entire day and now i feel angry. :cry:

Damn!

Oki, i've got things started and thanks for the first comment for my first post :) But i will be glad if someone could enlighten me about the tblog calendar thingy. It's suppose to rank you in google. Wanted to add into my blog but i've no idea where to get it.

That Maroon 5 song is driving me nuts  :lol: been thinking about it for days and i just need to listen to that song over and over again. That mtv is cool~ Forbidden love taste the sweetest isn't it? But i don't get it, is that older woman his girlfriend's mom or what?

What's up with my life now?? I'm still studying and pursuing my future. I've a boyfriend whom i've been with for 2 and a half years. Kinda all settled and nice but i do get bored every now and then. Count my blessing that i've someone who returns my love...

hello blog! First time trying this thing out and i do hope i will stick to it. :lol: Just finished my first test paper today and i' m totally exhausted. It was quite tough and i guess i won't do that well. :cry:

I'm gonna learn more stuff to decorate up this blog!